"You are one of a kind—designed to glorify God as only you can." - Excerpt from Daily Bread

morning-read-that-caught-my-eye

But Job responded, "Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?" (v.10).

conversation between A and B

[00:16] person A: are you sensitive
[00:16] person B: i'm human
[00:16] person B: to love, it's impossible to not need, depends on how you deal with that need

you're person A because you are important.

i'm person B and as for how i deal with my needs, up till now i've been avoiding the question quite well; tonight i finally asked God to intervene cause i know i can't go on like this forever.

new "thing to do"

⁴ In your anger do not sin;

when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Selah

⁵ Offer right sacrifices
and trust in the LORD.

maybe insomnia isn't so bad after all, it might just have its uses.

forbid her tears to reach the earth
recognize them for what they're worth
touch the sadness in her love
change it to comfort from above
for nothing else will do
and i feel helpless in truth
i can pray and know you hear
but only you may sate her fears

i would trade my soul to righteousness
but nothing could it cleanse
and nothing would it mean
so please Jesus, please

i am out of place to ask, i have no right, i have no merit; but i ask because i still feel her tears and know you do a billion and more fold. you understand her feeling of loss and all the things through her mind and heart better than anyone, and you can do all things.

"Cry In My Heart" - Starfield

"Cry In My Heart"

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head

new year resolution

Lord, caring for people, though rewarding, is taxing and at times hope wells up where it might be best if it didn't, and the disapointment that follows takes its toll; and i know you do your best to keep me whole with what access my stubborn heart limits you to. i feel as adam might have before he was with eve.

a new year's resolution:
sensitivity for guys is to exist, feelings and emotions too; but to show them with abandon is expected to be a rare occasion, its reasons and intentions already considered with time before respectful expression. most tears should never leave the eyes that those that fall may be precious in their selflessness. this will become my mantra of sensitivity.

i won't put on a mask because i cherish sincerity too much; but what i do or say or do not, it's to look out for the best interests of the ones i love; restraint is not acting.

i meant to

i really did, i meant to post something profound.
but instead, i'm censoring my thoughts tonight; because after a day of what i thought was clarity, they're all muddled up and confused.