forgiveness, thankfulness, loved, uncertainty, trust and dependence

May your forgiveness to me, be unlike a wage, which is earned, expected and whose time and amount are predictable and fathomable.
Instead, awe me, that it be like a gift from my favorite person in and out of the world, not deserved, unexpected, its time a surprise and its cost in love fathomless.
That i may feel thankful and praise you.

May i go through life undeserving, not expecting, adhering to your time and love which i cannot know in any definite fashion but through faith.

I cannot calculate my circumstances, but not a sparrow will fall to the ground apart from the Father's will. Much like such a sparrow but more so that you would send Christ to die, my days are counted by you and each moment proof of your sovereignty and love, these revealed in your good time bring gratefulness of undeserving attention and care to which any attempt of mine to repay you for your goodness is inadequate.

I am not afraid to trust in a destiny because you are the weaver of time.